Sad solitary Thought, who keep'st thy vigils. Thy solemn vigils, in the sick man's mind; Communing lonely with his sinking soul, And musing on the dubious glooms that lie
In dim obscurity before him,— thee, Wrapt in thy dark magnificence, I call At this still midnight hour, this awful season, When, on my bed, in wakeful restlessness,
I turn me wearisome; while all around, All, all, save me, sink in forgetfulness; I only wake to watch the sickly taper Which lights me to my tomb. Yes,‘ tis the hand
Of death I feel press heavy on my vitals, Slow sapping the warm current of existence. My moments now are few — the sand of life Ebbs fastly to its finish. Yet a little,
And the last fleeting particle will fall Silent, unseen, unnoticed, unlamented. Come then, sad Thought, and let us meditate, While meditate we may.— We have now
— But a small portion of what men call time To hold communion; for even now the knife, The separating knife, I feel divide The tender bond that binds my soul to earth.
Yes, I must die — I feel that I must die; And though to me has life been dark and dreary, Though Hope for me has smiled but to deceive, And Disappointment still pursued her blandishments,
Yet do I feel my soul recoil within me As I contemplate the dim gulf of death, The shuddering void, the awful blank — futurity. Ay, I had planned full many a sanguine scheme
Of earthly happiness — romantic schemes, And fraught with loveliness; and it is hard To feel the hand of Death arrest one's steps, Throw a chill blight o'er all one's budding hopes,
And hurl one's soul untimely to the shades, Lost in the gaping gulf of blank oblivion. Fifty years hence, and who will hear of Henry? Oh! none;— another busy brood of beings
Will shoot up in the interim, and none Will hold him in remembrance. I shall sink As sinks a stranger in the crowded streets Of busy London:— Some short bustle's caused,
A few inquiries, and the crowds close in, And all's forgotten.— On my grassy grave The men of future times will careless tread, And read my name upon the sculptured stone;
Nor will the sound, familiar to their ears, Recall my vanish'd memory. I did hope For better things!— I hoped I should not leave The earth without a vestige;— Fate decrees
It shall be otherwise, and I submit. Henceforth, oh, world, no more of thy desires! No more of hope! the wanton vagrant Hope! I abjure all. Now other cares engross me,
And my tired soul, with emulative haste, Looks to its God, and prunes its wings for heaven.
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