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What can it mean for me? what have I done to her? I in our freedom of love as a sun to her; She to our liberty goddess and slumberless Moon of the stars shining silver and numberless:

Who on my life, that was thorny and showery, Came — and made dewyness; smiled — and made flowery; Mine! the affinitized one of humanity: Mine! the elected of soul over vanity —

What have I done to her, what have I done! What can it mean for me? what have I said to her? I, who have idolized, worshipped, and pled to her; Sung for her, laughed for her, sorrowed and sighed for her,

Lived for her, hated and gladly had died for her! See; she has written me thus! she has written me — Sooner would dagger or serpent had smitten me! Would they had shrivelled or ever they'd read of it!

Eyes, that are wide to the bitterest dread of it — What have I said to her, what have I said! What shall I make of it, I, who am trembling Fearful of loss?— Oh, enamored, dissembling

Flame!— of the candle that burning, but guttering, Flatters the moth that comes circling and fluttering Out of the summer night; trusting, importunate, Quitting cool flowers for this — O unfortunate!—

Such has she been to me making me such to her, Slaying me, saying I never was much to her — What shall I make of it, what can I make! Love, in thy everglades, moaning and motionless

Look, I have fallen; the evil is potionless: I, with no thought but the heavens that lock us in, Set naked feet‘ mid the cottonmouth, moccasin Under wild-roses, the Cherokee, eying me:—

In the sweet blue with the egrets that, flying me, Loosened like blooms from magnolias, rose slenderly White and pale pink; where the mocking-bird tenderly Sang, making vistas of mosses melodious,

Wandered unheeding my steps in the odious Slime that was venom; I followed the fiery Violet curve of thy star falling wiry — So was I lost in night, thus am undone!...

Have I not told to her — living alone for her — Purposed unfoldments of love I had sown for her Here in the soil of my soul? their variety Endless; and ever she answered with piety.—

See! it has come to this... all the tale's suavity At the ninth chapter grows stupid with gravity; Duller than death all our beautiful history — Close it!— the finis is more than a mystery.—

Yes, I will tell her this; yes, I will tell.