“Dying? I am not dying? Are you mad? You think I need to ask for heavenly grace? I think you are a fiend, who would be glad To see me struggle in death's cold embrace.
“But, man, you lie! for I am strong — in truth Stronger than I have been in years; and soon I shall feel young again as in my youth, My glorious youth — life's one great priceless boon.
“O youth, youth, youth! O God! that golden time, When proud and glad I laughed the hours away. Why, there's no sacrifice ( perhaps no crime ) I'd pause at, could it make me young to-day.
“But I'm not old! I grew — just ill, somehow; Grew stiff of limb, and weak, and dim of sight. It was but sickness. I am better now, Oh, vastly better, ever since last night.
“And I could weep warm floods of happy tears To think my strength is coming back at last, For I have dreamed of such an hour for years, As I lay thinking of my glorious past.
“You shake your head? Why, man, if you were sane I'd strike you to my feet, I would, in truth. How dare you tell me that my hopes are vain? How dare you say I have outlived my youth?
“‘ In heaven I may regain it’? Oh, be still! I want no heaven but what my glad youth gave. Its long, bright hours, its rapture and its thrill — O youth, youth, youth! it is my youth I crave.
“There is no heaven! There's nothing but a deep And yawning grave from which I shrink in fear. I am not sure of even rest or sleep; Perhaps we lie and think as I have here.
“Think, think, think, think, as we lie there and rot, And hear the young above us laugh in glee. How dare you say I'm dying! I am not. I would curse God if such a thing could be.
“Why, see me stand! why, hear this strong, full breath — Dare you repeat that silly, base untruth?” A cry — a fall — the silence known as death Hushed his wild words. Well, has he found his youth?
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